Living In The Moment

Not sure where to go with this one as for most of my life this is definitely not something (i thought) I have been strong at. It may not come across sometimes and people may think that deep down I have everything figured out and that I am a very calm natured person but typically its the opposite...I guess I have just been great at hiding it over the years. I am one who desires immediate results and I was always so impatient waiting for what I wanted. Sometimes if I knew that the reward/goal accomplishment would take a long time I would keep pushing it to the back of my TO DO LIST. My first few years dealing with patients I would take it so personally if someone who had been suffering from an injury for years didn't get better after one treatment. When I started triathlon I had a large checklist of what I wanted to accomplish but would get very irritated that the accomplishments where not dropping from my checklist daily.

It wasn't really until this past spring that I woke up one morning and walked downstairs and looked at what life has given me that I realized anything worth while in this world takes time and patience. I saw my amazing wife and three princesses just belly laughing on the couch with not a care in the world. They didn't care what the day had ahead of them or what stresses presented themselves the day before...they were in the moment and living life to the fullest. It was then it hit me that what I thought was years of impatience was truly my way of being patient with all situations. I was overwhelmed with the thoughts of all the early mornings/hot lunch time hours/always smelling like chlorine which in my mind proved that I really had been patient over the years knowing that consistency and always trying to be better the next day was what made me the fittest I have ever been late into my 30's. I was overwhelmed from all the patient feedback that maybe I had taken for granted but now meant more to me than ever before...all those times healing people which allowed them to continue on with their goals in life made me a better person and maybe I presented my self with patience and confidence which gave them the trust in me as a doctor. I was overwhelmed with the now THREE little girls in my life look up to me every single day for guidance...for a shoulder to cry...for a tickle or a laugh...for a snuggle buddy...and most of all just to be their dad. Having three children at times can feel crazy but they look to you to be patient is situations and to help teach them whats right and wrong.

What I am trying to get out in this message is that nothing in this life of ours will ever be easy. If its easy than either you cheated or you didn't push yourself far enough into discovering what really lies deep inside of you. Greatest comes with determination, sweat, tears, injuries, an amazing team and most of all the PATIENCE to know that if you believe in yourself and wake up each and everyday giving 100% of who you are that nothing will stand in your way.

It has been about six months since my wife's cousin Jimmy passed away from brain cancer and there is not a moment that goes bye in which I wish his life was not ended by such a terrible disease. It has also reminded me that the little things in life only matter if you give them the energy to grow and take over your life in a negative fashion. We live in a much different world than when I was a kid in which mom basically said go out and play and come home around dinner time. There is more going on in this world of ours that constantly tries to occupy our attention for the worst. Most of it is out of my control but what is in my control I make sure I push forward knowing that I will overcome.

MAKE IT COUNT!!!!